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double my amount of despair is incredibly easy
it just takes a few stabs of aggression at my soul
it takes a few nights alone waiting
for you to care about me like I care about you
perhaps it takes a double negative with out have and despair
which in turns multiplies into much despair
for now the creature sleeps within my ribs
he's alive and he means business.
because every night i feel him
he grows
everyday I make the effort he grows
because you leave nothing for him to feed on
but my own body
if he were well nourished he would enver grow so deep
but my despair is thick
it is the primordial substance
which keeps my feet on the ground
and doesn't allow me to lift off of this battered ground
that reeks of singed hair
and burnt flesh.